Thursday, February 12, 2009

I Hate Cancer


Okay! It has been like almost 4 months since I posted. When I learned about my Cancer diagnosis I told a lot of people to check out my blog and I would keep you all updated on what was going on...well, I didn't do it! Sorry! I think I am in a bit of denial. If I have to talk about it or write about it then it is true, and I really don't want it to be true and so I guess I like living in my happy little world called "Denial". I started chemo treatments in December the week before Christmas and just finished my third treatment as of Jan. 31st. I have been tolerating it fairly well, I have a few bad days and then after about a week I feel almost back to normal, so then I have 2 good weeks. I started losing my hair about 2 weeks after my first treatment. My sister Marilyn shaved my head while we were on a trip to Palm Springs (I guess I will be brave and add a photo of it). Then my daughter-in-law Melinda shaved it even closer the next week. So I have been bald since the middle of January (I wear lots of warm beanies). I did purchase a wig however I don't even think I have a photo of me with it on. I really have been able to just carry on with a fairly normal life.


I found out today that I am neutropenic (my white blood cell count is too low). That means I have to stay away from crowds and anyone who is sick. I am not allowed to eat raw fresh fruits or vegetables (I am not happy about that!!!!!). So...I figured now is the time to catch up on my blog because I basically will really be stuck at home (unless I want to walk around wearing a funny looking mask). I also guess that I can now do some much needed deep house cleaning (that is if I have the energy). We shall see about that!


I wish I had great and amazing inspirational thoughts to add to this post, but I really don't get those in my weak brain very often! Anyway, I am not really feeling very inspired tonight! So, I will write more at a later time when I feel a little more positive.
However, I do want to thank all of you for your cards, letters, kind words, food, flowers, plants, prayers, fasting, and faith in my behalf! You don't know how much I appreciate it because I can't express my feelings sufficiently! Please know that I feel your love and support. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! Love - Kristine

11 comments:

GARDNER FAMILY said...

yeah I am so happy to see that you posted, even though it's not fun to talk about. Glad you are feeling okay!

Angie said...

Dear Aunt Christine, what a trooper you are! My prayers are with you. Love, Angela

Earllyn said...

Christine -- you are in our nightly prayers -- I will be anxious to have you join the "Survivors Club"!!! Keep positive thoughts and please don't worry about cleaning the house -- YOU are more important right now. Keep us posted... Love, G-ma Smartt (Earllyn)

Holly Goodman said...

Boy, I know how you are feeling to a great extent! I should send you pictures of me when I was bald. They say I have a nicely shaped head! I hated the weeks I felt lousy, but I usually had good weeks in-between too. I'll have to email you the funny story about when I lost my hair and we played a joke on my dad. It's pretty funny. Maybe I'll do a post on my blog about it. Did I even invite you to my blog? I'll have to check. I hope things go well and the treatments do their thang!

Debbie 'n Gary Talbot said...

You are an amazingly strong woman and we love you! let us know if you ever need anything and we really need to come visit more often!

CHERYL said...

I HATE CANCER TOO!!! I think if Marilyn really loved you she would've shaved her head too! ha ha :) You are in our thoughts and prayers also. Take care and spoil yourself, and let others spoil you too! Love ya! Cheryl

amy g said...

man, if anyone can pull off the bald look its you!! We love you so much and wish we could be by your side through this entire thing! I am so proud to call you my mother-in-law and am very lucky to have you in my life. I think Troy told you we are coming down over spring break (can't get here fast enough) so we will see you then! love you and get those white blood cells back in action so you can go out and play!

amy g said...

ps-i hate cancer too.

Lori J (UrgentCookie) said...

Aunt Kristine, I feel the same way about cancer, I hate it too! Our prayer are with you that you may overcome this trial in your life. You are such an amazing woman and have done so much for me. I love you and wish you the best!!!

Sharlene said...

Kristine
you are an amazing woman and mom to deal with all this. You are always in our prayers. We love you!

Alisha said...

I hate cancer too! We love you! Next time you are in Logan there is a fun little wig shop called "Wiggin Out". Get feeling well soon!